The Constant State of Confusion!

From the cradle to the grave, a person switches his states from being happy to being sad, from being a kid to being a teenager and then adult. But one state remains constant throughout. It is the state of confusion. Being an infant we get confused when we come across new tastes, being a toddler we are confused about the new faces and what they are talking about. 

This constant state of confusion is confusing every other person. Whomever I met to, the one thing I find common in every person is the confusion; someone is confuse about the meaning of life, another person is confused about career opportunities, another friend is confused about family and another one is confused about the religion they are following. Hence, causing a constant wrath in their minds and strengthening the confused minds. 

I, myself, am not a person who can claim otherwise. I am confused about what i want to be, where I want to be, with whom I want to be but the confusion, yes the very same confusion is always there. If I decide on the places where I want to be, I would rather end up getting confused about what will happen to my family even though my presence does not charm them anymore. If I decide on my future goals, the very same confusion tells me that you will earn half of what your friends earn and hence should give up on those goals and move on to better career goals. 

  

Escape (Post 1)

"For a moment in life, we all want an escape, then we keep on running and shutting down the doors leading to that very moment. We don't have the courage to face the reality of that moment."

'In my life there are so many of them'. Hazel was thinking when the door was knocked at. One of those moments was right now. She hasn't the courage to face this moment; sitting on her bed on her first wedding night. She was thinking of the way to escape; not because she was afraid of not of what the usual brides are being afraid of but because this man was not what she desired of. She has always loved her cousin and to her knowledge her cousin too. But her father was not happy about this and forced her to marry this man.

She could feel the presence of the stranger in her room now. He was smiling and she was hating it. "This man was supposed to be her best friend who knew her feelings for her cousin all along yet he agreed to marry her just because she was the only daughter of the richest man in the town" she thought.

"Hazel" he said. She saw him with complaining gaze. He knew what had happened but he looked innocent. 

A flash back: in eighth grade she moved to Seoul Korea and joined one of the high schools. She was always afraid of the new encounters and hence same was the case when she stepped in her class on the very first day. She wanted to escape from there and hide in the corner. She has always been like that; always running away from the situations that might be new to her. But this, this she could not avoid this. At that  very day, a boy in the class approached her and told her that he knew what she felt and has been through the same when he moved here five years back. Trying her best to avoid this boy. she behaved as coldly as she could but by the end of the day she had a friend at school for whom she could go to attend the school. 

"Hazel" a very renowned yet very strange voice echoed in her ears. That boy was sitting in front of her she had met 14 years ago. A boy that has grown up to be a handsome and smart gentleman; a complete marriage material. Yet Hazel hated him for what he has done.

"You must be thinking that I married you because I wanted your money. This is not.." he was saying and Hazel interrupted her "just stop it. I do not want to hear any excuses you have right now. You have betrayed me and the trust I had on you! I always thought that you had my back and you will support me but Jordan you, you destroyed our relation and everything, you are responsible for my destruction". Jordan was listening to her and did not utter even a single word. He knew her very well and knew that it is best for her to let it all out that has been building up inside her, only then she will be able to understand what he has to tell her. "Ah!" the sigh was all he could reply her with. 

It is sometimes the hardest job to explain to someone why some event happened and why s/he has to be the one to be at loss. And that is exactly the situation you want escape from. Jordan wanted to tell Hazel why all of this happened and why she ended up as his wife but the difficulty was that he had no proof to explain his innocence. He was feeling guilty and wanted to escape the confrontation. It has been seventy-two hours and still Hazel has not let him explain anything. 

Note: This story is to be continued.!! 

Autumn is here!

It's already September and it feels like 2018 just started yesterday. The sun is still hot as if it's still May here. Getting out of the bed in the morning is still a struggle and it feels like there is nothing that can be done about that. Reaching the university just in time to make it to the lab feels as if I am still a student. 

Although it all seems like fun and exciting phrases, yet in reality it is just boring and dull and not at all amusing. All of it signifies that we are living in the past. We are so used to this that we don't realize for a moment that we tend to live in our past as if it is a habit. The moment we realize this, we know Autumn is here; for every single year the same happens. 

Autumn is around the corner and so is the autumn in our hearts is here. We have realized once again that we are living sticking to our pasts and lingering on the saddest possible memories. And instead of giving up on what has been gone and done, we are purposely letting all this to fall on our hearts to let the hearts ache in the sync. 

Now we know Autumn inside our hearts is here. The leaves have started to fall of the branches of heart and the sunshine has been blocked by the clouds of despair and sadness. The ground of the heart is covered fallen memories. Everywhere in the heart and every thing and every moment that passes, the realization of Autumn being here is more and more.

It will be October in 24 days and then the world will join these hearts and the surrounding will also be chanting in sync with the sad hearts 

"Autumn is here, Autumn is here

 Leaves are falling, Tears are falling

 Autumn is here, Autumn is here

 Sunshine is missing, Desire is missing"  

The one with STATIC Summers!

Life is a like a wonder world; you are expecting it to be the way you want it to be but then at the very moment you get predictive about it, you start to wonder what actually has happened to you!

These summers are just like that for me. 

From a stranger's perspective, summer 2018 has been the static and non-functional days of my life so far. He would see it as I have been doing nothing to change my days to make them more thrilling and adventurous. 

BUT But but it is not like that at all. I have been struggling every single day of my last eight months to make it happen, to bring the change in this routine, to break through these static state of dullness and laziness. I have been doing things that are against my nature and will just to make ends meet, just to pass it through the month and just to sleep comfortably at the night. 

Nothing seems to be valid in my time's opinion. My family wants me to get married and to see me get settled somewhere in Europe but no one considers what I am doing and what I want. They do not approve of my choices and my dreams for they are more than just settling down in developed countries to have a happy family. 

Sometimes, the peer pressure is so much that I consider I am doing nothing at all but one thing is for sure I am not giving up on my dreams and my goals even if the society, family and friends cast them as INVALID for there's no dream that is not VALID

The one with understanding and misunderstanding!

Human nature is strange and weird, and ridiculous sometimes. We, as humans, tend to misunderstand the situation way before we try to understand the situation. Like for example, if we join a conversation in a middle and that is particularly about us, the first thought that hits us is that they are definitely talking about the negative aspects of our personality when in actual they are appreciating how we dress. This is just one of the many examples I have stated here. 

Why we misunderstand?

This is the question that needs to be answered. The reason is because misunderstanding a situation is way easier than understanding it, for understanding requires you to keep calm and patient, to think about the options that are in favour of it, to talk it out and clear things. This is the difficult part. We do not want to understand a person we don't like or probably the person who told you about a particular event is the one you trust more than anyone else and s/he might be lying about it or has misunderstood the situation himself/herself.

It is very important to understand the next person in an argument to make it a discussion, the situation to cultivate the beneficial responses out of it, the circumstances to turn them into your favour. Change yourself to be a person that don't react without understanding the situation but a soul that ponder and think before reacting.

Misunderstanding leads to the results that are fatal for you relationship, business, work environment, for your own self and steals the inner peace in you. Where as understanding will result in a self that is calm more than ever, will have the positive effects on your life and on the lives of those who matter and will save your precious time for you will know whether to waste time on a useless thing or to move on. 

Stay Blessed!!! 😊😊😊

The one where death meets life!

Life and death are the bitter realities of this universe. From the very beginning, the moment we open our eyes, we are told that death takes on life and there is no way out. But this is just how our eyes see it; this is not just it. Life takes on death and when it happens there is nothing more beautiful than this.

For me, death is not closing your eyes for eternity and never opening them again till the day we all are destined to meet again; death does come to a person who is still breathing. It is not the end of his body but the end of his dreams, his desires, his love! This is the death I am talking about. For such a person the death of the body is in fact the eternal bliss for he doesn't have to feel the pain, he suffers every day. 

I have seen many people around me fighting death and losing the battle. But there is this one person who had won the battle. You must be thinking that the person escape death and is living. No this is not the case. He, in fact, died but death took him to his life.

 I saw him lying in the bed, suffering evident from his face, I was sure that since the moment she left him, he had died a hundred times and his endurance had started to leave him. I moved forward to have a word with him, instead I grabbed the pillow by his side and pressed it against his face and pressed it even harder until he passed out even though there wasn't any struggle to stop me. I took the pillow off him to see whether there was any pain left? Ah! death is a strange creature; it leaves people in pain but those who suffer in their life, it leaves them without agony. His face, for the first time in years, seemed content. There was no sign of distress, as if he met the love of his life he has longed for finally in the heavens. It made me a lot more satisfied with what I did. Seeing him, dieing everyday, was killing me inside but seeing his content face brought life to my dead soul. Many of you will judge me based on this. What I did is justified, for the hardest part of the act was killing the person I have loved my entire life.      

The one with the Introduction!

Welcome to Valid if Valid!

This is my first personnel blog. I have been writing for some time now, but never ever I have tried to publish anything I had written previously. But now as I think of it I find it an utter mistake since personally I have always supported the idea of one sharing his/her thoughts with rest of the people. However, as for myself I have never felt comfortable with this *introvert problems*. Cutting it short, I have finally decided to come out of that fake shell. *Fake because every introvert is an extrovert and people make use of this word to hide their reality*

I find it a mistake because knowing everyone's perspective on something lets you weigh your words in right proportion and polish your views. 

You might be wondering: why I named this blog as "Valid if Valid"? Huh! Reason being very simple: whatever I tried on as URL, it was declared invalid and yep there's the catch. I just tried it out of frustration and boo, it worked! 

And I am sure the topic of this post has already suggested that I am a big fan of FRIENDS so a lot from Chandler and Joey will be coming to your way. 

Enjoy your Life like your Coffee!